Could it be? Do you see?
Is it true? Your mind too?
You know those movie moments…
Looking across the room…
You’re looking my way, but is there meaning?
Am I the focus of your glance?
Or are my thoughts just self-centered?
Am I overanalyzing again?
It’s so easy to tell myself “No.”
Nothing like this could happen to me.
I swat away the possibility that the attraction may be mutual…
Guilty of acting too hastily again?
I tell myself not to get too attached.
All that seems to bring about is disappointment.
We’re in different seasons of life, I know…
The probability that our paths will go different ways is definitely not low.
But why is it hard to aim for just friends.
The attraction, my dreaming, it all clouds my view…
If I push away, or avoid taking the initiative, waiting hesitantly,
Would you give up even if the feeling is mutual?
Or would you keep trying?
I want to latch on,
To see this as hope,
But entertaining this idea could just bring major heartbreak…
Do I risk it?
If I do, how far is too far…
What can I reveal?
Tongue-tied or open…
Would I scare you away?
This confusion/conflict in my mind,
Causes me to just want to give up.
Of course maybe it’s better to say I’m giving it up to God.
After all, He’ll bring it together if it’s truly within His plan.
Time may pass…things may change…
But this is just another step of trusting and waiting patiently for life’s plan to play out.
For now, it’s a smile and a bit of conversation to suffice…
Offering a glimmer of hope in this movie we call life.
