Thursday, June 16, 2011

Significance

Significance

My voice…
My words…
My being…
I wonder about my significance…
Maybe that’s why I don’t talk…
Silence stems from doubt…
Insecurity gives way to jealousy…
I worry I’ll lose someone’s attention…
Again I remind myself where I should be looking for my worth and significance…
There is One who cares…

But yet when I am noticed, I seem to want to hide…
I fear the pain of stepping out, taking a chance…
To be heard…
To be seen…
To make a difference…
Yet what do I have to lose…
Those who care will listen…
Those who care will push to hear what’s deep inside too…
In the end, everyone and everything is significant…
Even the silence…

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Glimmering Hope?

Could it be?  Do you see?
Is it true?  Your mind too?
You know those movie moments…
Looking across the room…
You’re looking my way, but is there meaning?
Am I the focus of your glance?

Or are my thoughts just self-centered?
Am I overanalyzing again?
It’s so easy to tell myself “No.”
Nothing like this could happen to me.
I swat away the possibility that the attraction may be mutual…
Guilty of acting too hastily again?

I tell myself not to get too attached.
All that seems to bring about is disappointment.
We’re in different seasons of life, I know…
The probability that our paths will go different ways is definitely not low.
But why is it hard to aim for just friends.
The attraction, my dreaming, it all clouds my view…

If I push away, or avoid taking the initiative, waiting hesitantly,
Would you give up even if the feeling is mutual?
Or would you keep trying?
I want to latch on,
To see this as hope,
But entertaining this idea could just bring major heartbreak…
Do I risk it?
If I do, how far is too far…
What can I reveal?
Tongue-tied or open…
Would I scare you away?

This confusion/conflict in my mind,
Causes me to just want to give up.
Of course maybe it’s better to say I’m giving it up to God.
After all, He’ll bring it together if it’s truly within His plan.
Time may pass…things may change…
But this is just another step of trusting and waiting patiently for life’s plan to play out.
For now, it’s a smile and a bit of conversation to suffice…
Offering a glimmer of hope in this movie we call life.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Stuck in the Pages

Stuck In the Pages
Between the pages of a love story, there lay a photo.
They say a picture speaks a thousand words…
But when you don’t know the identity, then what?
Just stop and wonder,
Imagine and dream…
Make up a story and make it gleam!
The search is on…
Where is this mystery man who lurks between the pages of someone else’s story?

Then I discovered the answer to the story.
It appeared that only a miracle would make anything of it.
There’s distance, there’s age, there’s my lack of trust and hope.
Then I remember…
Nobody really knows, but God has it planned.
Thinking though, wouldn’t it be sweet to tell a story to your children…
I first met your daddy between the pages of a book…

Deep Down

Deep Down
Two people are feeling the effects of “deep down,”
One’s in the ocean and one’s in a home.
Even if they were both on land, would the distant connection remain?
So many memories haunt her as she sits reading and stroking a gift.
She’s wondered and waited, yet still only God knows.
Does he dream too or is he tied to his dream job?
She writes letters to someone, yet she fears he is only in her imagination.
“Is communication possible?” she wonders…
Would he even care or respond?
He said he wouldn’t make a lady wait.
But it was her choice without his knowing.
Waiting…Praying…Dreaming…Hoping…

Then one day it arrives, what she never imagined would happen.
Sure it is just a letter full of everyday events.
But somehow it produces a smile, a few tears, and a flood of memories…
The hope grows cautiously, yet she wants to burst into song.
It’s been so long!

The letters continued, though some far between.
Two years passed and the connection still grew.
Hoping and praying, she waited on God.
“I know if you want this, Your Will will be done.”

You know how they claim fairy tales don’t come true?
Well she kept believing and trusting too.
In the time of three months, the letters ceased.
She wondered and worried, but wouldn’t forget.

Days came and went,
Smiles faded, tears fell…
She tried to move on, finding inspiration in books.
The Bible brought peace and still hope.
She wouldn’t give up.
Not even when feeling at the end of her rope.

One day she walked into her favorite spot.
If ever depressed, she enjoyed to get lost at the library in the pages of a book.
As she wandered around, searching and searching.
Then a man turned and gave her a look.
She gasped at his familiar face of surprise.
It’d been so long…and she never believed they’d meet again on this earth.
It was him, from the letters causing feelings deep down.
They embraced and she sobbed, thanking God for His perfect plan and timing.
He asked, “You waited?  For me?  But why?”
She answered, “You’re different and I knew God would provide.”
They stood there in awe holding tight to fulfilled hope.

Never doubt, never give up, never speed past the best…
God can and will do what is best.
It will be more than you can imagine…
You’ll stand in awe…
Keep trusting the plan you know that He has.
After all, He knows all about those feelings deep down.
His love is that way and so we strive to love too.
Across distance and time…
From the depths of the ocean to the warmth of a home…

Pain...Dreams...Reality...

Pain…Dreams…Reality...
Second best…
Rebound girl…
Not enough…
Failure here, failure there…
Or maybe one side without care…
Leaving only broken pieces…
Maybe false, maybe true…
What do you do when these are the only thoughts coming to you?

I want to feel special…
I want to feel loved…
Then I remember there is One who lavishes love on us all equally.
It’s not for a reason of what we have done.
Instead, just as I am, He loves me a ton.
His affections are sweeter than a box of chocolates or a dozen roses.
The romance in movies is nothing compared to this.
Infusing joy into my life…
And above all He’s even jealous…
Yes, even of you…even with your mistakes, blemishes, and scars.
Because what’s more, He never changes,
His love will stand strong.
Remember that failure you suffered before?
Well worry no more because God is the only part of the universe that never changes.

He’s the Creator,
He made the whole world.
Those gifts you’ve been given, wrapped up with care,
Really stand no chance against the blessings He showers down.
A sunset…a snowflake…a flower…a hug…

He is the Perfect Prince.
He is more than enough.
Somehow, I still desire more though.
But I’ll trust this Prince with my heart…He’ll know when to pass it on.
Someday, somewhere, somehow…
Dreams really can come true, maybe even with the dawn.